WHEN FRIENDSHIP TURNS TO LOVE
Once
upon a time, I lived in a small town in North Sumatra. I have a lot of friends
in my home town. They are Sari,Wita, Dimas,Andi dan Tono. Since I was child we are
always together in the same school. From
that time on we got close, share lunch,
talk and became best friends. Both of them was a very popular girls at school, they are
Sari and Wita . They were clever and fun,
such a busy girls. They are were good students and my classmates also enjoyed
with them.
We
are had hang out around together as often as
I had hang out around with my family. We usually spent our pastime to do
something. I loved them not for a little
bit. Sometimes I also talk to them when
I have problems.
When long holidays in
Christmas come in, everybody get happiness. I and my friends went to the church in the night of the Christmas. then we
had dinner together. After finished,we go home and make a small party for fun.
Andi sat next to me. we tried
sharing some story and we laughing together and enjoyed the party. Then he whisper and said “ I want to be
your boyfriend, I love you more than friends and I serious to say that.“ What!
Are you joking?” I said.“ What mistake did I make? I just like
to be your boyfriend. That’s it. Is there anything wrong with that?” he
responded. “Why are asking me? What happen to this all? I said. Then he
continued “I say ‘I LOVE YOU’ but you don’t have a heart to accept my
love.” after it was happened I can say anything to him. Over the night I was
thinking about the thing he said and I
couldn’t sleep.
On next
day in the morning, I look my phone there is message from him. He asked me
again about it. My mind thinking more, “why it should happen for me? This is
the second time was happened. I just want be best friend for them, it’s enough.”
But finally I accept him. Well maybe not
like this but I knew I could fall if I let myself. The days be filled with love, joy, growth,
inspiration, and meaningful in Christmas season.
Inspite of this, things changed. We had been together for
12 years. But in 2014 I was moving. Moving far away from him. It’s like a new world I’m getting my self into. my
profoundness love for him is still there and I don’t want to leave him. We
agreed to call each other, send letters if we have time. Except that, it that
wouldn’t be the same, it wouldn’t be like old times. We wouldn’t see each other
except in pictures, we couldn’t do anything together now. We couldn’t be there for each other, all the time
anymore.
One
year had passed and still no sign of him. I tried calling his cell but there is
no answering. I was so worried and sad
that he forgot about me. I just
couldn’t forget the fact that I love him. My tears started falling. I tried to
get over him. I really tried then I can move on and forget all about the
memories. I started focus to my dreams.
After
my final test done , I choose come back to my hometown. I can’t patient waiting
for until the day of the departure came.
I was happy when I got a chance to see my family directly, I miss them very
much.
A few day later,
he came to my house without noticed me first. He started to talk as if he
don’t know anything. “Try to analyze yourself and then get back to me,
if you really want to know the true reason.” He
responded with a serious look.
He said “It's
funny how someone can be my best friend one moment and the love of my life the
next. You are my friends and you gave me so much more. I can't thank you enough
for all that you've given me. You gave me a place that I can call home. A
friend forever and a lover for life.”
I asked him “Then
why you’re hurting me like this? I’ve never seen a person to hurt whom they
love.” He continued, “Do you know what the problem is?? It only took a
day to fall in love with you. Actually it took much less. I fell for you in an
instant. The moment came and passed but the feeling I felt when I fell for you remains
and will remain forever.” My boyfriend
found out about it, and made promised to never do it again.
I never said a
word about my feelings as with time the fear inside increased. I can’t accept him again like the first time. Althought
I love him but I told him that he would stay a friend forever in my heart. I
don’t want lost our friendship. Maybe I wouldn’t have been left with these
memories I could treasure the whole life. I let him go to keep his memories
treasured forever not only in my heart but in his too without spoiling even a
bit.
we often lose our love to our
fear but there’s something a way too important that we have gained all through
which we can treasure forever without regretting.
-THE END-